Alex Russo through the years.
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Memories are a part of us that can lose or find us. It can make us yearn for something long gone and teach us lessons that make us a better person. As for me,it has always been an avenue for loneliness and questions.
These past few days, I’ve been wanting to write something before 2012 arrived, but I can’t find enough motivation. I didn’t know where to start, until New Year’s Eve came to pass, that is.
To begin, let me start at the New Year’s Eve mass. I was assigned to serve as a lector for that mass and I really like it though I cannot deny i was darn nervous. After doing my part, I listened to the priest’s sermon. He was saying something about gratitude, faith for the future, and living and loving the present. I wasn’t able to grasp the idea of his preachings because I was too sleepy. Feeling guilty for not paying attention to the mass I prayed for the almighty to forgive me for all the bad things that I have done for the past few years. I also prayed for him to give me prosperous new year. Then it came to me, as I saw all people kneeling and praying. Everyone was so concentrated in what they were doing, it gave me a thought that maybe they are also praying to have a good year ahead. Who would not think of asking God for a good start to the beginning of the year? If that is the case then everyone was praying for the same thing that I was praying for. If all people were praying the same thing, whose prayer would be answered? Then I thought maybe it’s not about how much you pray, but how you persevere to make your prayers came true. Sincerity in your prayer is shown through how you act upon your wishes. However, no matterhow you persevere, without a mix of luck and oppurtunity, efforts would be futile. Anyways, whatever happens this year I guess there’s nothing left to do but to accept it. Just live like there is no tomorrow. J
Neverthelss, that’s not the best part of my story. :P. After the mass, Peachy and I started lighting firecrackers, it was really fun. Then Patrick (childhood friend) came and asked us to head to their place. At first we hesitated because we’re shy J. But i saw that Pai’s really wanted to go, so I decided to accompany her. At first we felt awkward. It’s been a while since BARKS had a reunion. As far as I can remember, it’s been 4 years since we last had a talk. A lot of things had changed; we don’t have that much ego involvement with one another anymore. At first we were silence, then without noticing it were laughing and throwing jokes.
While sitting there with them I felt exhilirated. I felt that I was home. I have always long for the time we would spend time together again, just like before, when we were little and foolish. I really missed those times when we used to be just like that.
As children we always went to the park, we raced; skated and did other fun stuff. We used to talk about how we wanted our lives to be, admiring stuff and passing the time just talking with each other. I always go back to those times when someone will call me in our phone and ask me to go to their place and play. We used to fight before, but i perfectly understand that those fights are natural and part of our childhood. I regret nothing about my past. Everything that had happened, all those things made me who I am now. I want to thank the BARKS, from the bottom of my heart I really thank you guys for giving me wonderful childhood memories. I am perfectly aware that what we had before were long gone, we have our academic life and our new sets of friends. But I just want to assure you guys that no matter what happen or how long we’ll be apart I will always be your friend. Before, I really thought our friendhip had vanished the moment that we stopped communicating with each other, but I guess that’s not what we are right now. We’re still friends right? I know we are, I felt it J
I took picture of us that night; I wanted to savor the moment. Maybe it would be months or maybe year for us to meet again. Anyhow, that photo would be enough to keep you guys in my memory.
Childhood is the building years of everyone; it has a great effect on our attitude, behavior and personality. As for me it touches my life in a very gentle way, it is something that I will treasure for the rest of my exixtence. I am very pleased that you are a part of it. If before I used to feel loneliness whenever I’m seeing your reminiscence, now it’s different, now I feel blessed and loved. Thank you for those wonderful years. I’m really grateful for the past.
-Mars
-January 1, 2012
The light that once we always have
That gives us all the strength to fight
May fade away in just a snap
When one refuse towards the path
Then darkness came with loneliness
With fear and dread lay down to man
We cried and cried but no one hears
And wish the light is back to see
But chances are not in our hands
And past cannot be brought to life
So all she can do was to close her eyes
And reminisce the light that she once has
Is this the life we want to live
Full of regrets and miseries
Cause time won’t wait for us to see
The path will take for eternity
This is so exact HAHAHAHA
Seriously , it is painful !!!
so true!! :))
(Source: quinn-berry, via yummy-peaches)
